It’s really not me, it’s you.

Go with the flow.

Sometimes friends all say the same thing. So, it can be hard to be right about something if everyone says you’re wrong. It’s much easier to go along with people and be wrong too. I get it. However, that’s still wrong.

I’ve struggled with bipolar disorder for a long time. I’m open about it. Even if you first meet me, you might find out about my bipolar disorder. It’s important to me because it’s the only consistency I’m able to offer, letting you know how inconsistent I am.

I’ve been consistently inconsistent. I don’t even try to do it. It just happens.

I’ve never changed on that since the Dr. first mentioned it years ago. I’ve been consistently open with my mood disorder. I am not granted the same consideration with folks’ bias and I’m pretty sick of it.

I will get moody. It will happen. What I am saying.

All the time, folks read I’m bipolar, think nothing of it, then up and abandon me on a hard day. Forever. I’m not the one being inconsistent there, do you see that? That’s folks flaking. I know, I flaked on a lot of shit, “back in the day.”

If you can’t read about a friend’s illness, think hard on that “friend” word.

If someone tells you they have a mental illness and you can’t bother to read the symptoms, don’t be their friend. They’ll throw you a curveball, you’ll blame them, then leave them on a bad day. Just don’t be friends to begin with!

Friends are important on bad days. But friends ditching me on bad days is for the birds. My friends know I can get hyper and angry. I get down. I get lethargic. I get all these things in combination too. Little hyper and little angry seem to be the norm sometimes. I don’t know why, just my demeanor. Just my brain.🧠 

When I lose friends and my pulse is 126 and I can’t tell my head from my asshole, I actually need friends. Jerks.

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