If you embark on a journey, folks might not come along.

I think it is cool a pendulum can give you a sense of direction. Thats kinda’ deep, the way I see it.

A change over time happened with me.

I was fed up with how music, politics, privilege, and all sorts of things work. I decided to change what I could for myself. It turns out, that process shed friends. It invited loneliness. I wasn’t prepared for that.

When I feel confident I’m doing right and it feels like no one wants to join me, that’s too much feeling. I have to sit down and look at facts. They paint a slightly better picture than feelings do of reality.

I drove a truck like this one for 12 years. I listened to college courses on iTunes U (now no longer) for much of it, maybe even hundreds of them. I was in school.

Sometimes the Big Bad Wolf takes precedence.

I collaborated with many folks all over the world. Felt popular lol. Thousands of followers across social media. But fucking trump. He’ll take everything. So I had to switch gears for my own sanity.

The system in place allowed for him. So, fuck the system. When I say Trump regime, (I say it often), understand I don’t mean just republicans. That doesn’t make any sense when Dems allowed everything too. The whole thing is bad. It stinks. It’s corrupt, performative, and politicians now sound like pro wrestlers with book deals. Both sides.

The more I look at this picture, the more it dawns on me they are actually in the safest walking place.

We aren’t all in the same bus going to the same place.

I used to be different. I used to talk differently. I used to act differently. I used to think differently. I’m not the same person I was. It’s very helpful for me to remind myself of this. Of course I don’t have the same (or as many) friends!

I don’t want to play a shitty game or gig. So rather than have friends that have to roll over and take it for whatever reasons, I decided it was time to fight with what I had. It’s mostly music, but also this little website here.

I really love maps. I think this is sad. I’d rather just see the map.

But talking one on one…

I also get in political conversations. I think that’s where the magic happens, personally. I’m not putting anyone down for what they believe. I’m merely finding out if I’m able to change what they know. That’s going well. I like my little place again. Different than before, but more honest somehow.

If you don’t know where your spirit or intellect wants to go, what tells you? How do you find that out?

How to relax, honestly speaking.

When you can be honest with folks, even enemies, it’s relaxing. I promise. I used to be afraid of consequences like I’d done something wrong, when I hadn’t. I just lied habitually for safe feelings.

But much like recently with music, when I looked at realistic consequences for telling the truth, I was sold on it. Took 30 some odd years for that. I don’t expect y’all to hurry. lol.

I’ll be watching this. Heather Cox Richardson may be the best political historian in the world. James Talarico is a very Christian democrat taking on republican evil overlords here in Texas. I don’t like either group, but rooting for Jesus on this one, the “poor” one.

It really is a journey, and it is yours, (at least for now).

I say I’m a songwriter on a journey a lot. It’s even in the logo here on this site. These are the kinds of journeys I take for myself. I’m discovering what being a curious and good person is like. It’s pretty cool.

Fear is at the root of the Trump regime. They’re fearful. The more scared they get, the higher the atrocity count. They’re afraid of being exposed. I don’t know why, everyone knows they’re already losers and freeloaders, even them. But if no one says it, they get their way. Not my thing, anymore.

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My name is Kelly and I like playing music for my chiweenie dog.

I love the djembe if you didn’t know. Before I played it everyday, my hands felt numb. Especially my pinky finger on my right hand. Happy to report, the hands feel great today. It makes all the other instruments more fun. I can actually play them like I want to. Good times. Enjoy.