I get it.
I understand. That’s the basic gist. I act weird, I might have hurt you emotionally. Maybe I stunted your growth somehow. I am impulsive and hyper at times, and other times lethargic. I’m lazy, yet often work for days barely stopping for rest or food. I bet I was super tough to live with.
In the last 10 years or so..
What I’ve discovered is I have Bipolar with some PTSD and Anxiety for good measure. I’ve been going to the doctor for 10 years or so. Recently discovered lithium. And now I think about you folks I’ll probably never see again. Kinda’ where I am at.
I get it part two.
I hope your life is full of enlightenment and happiness. Sure I feel bitter about most of you ghosts abandoning me when I needed a ride to the hospital. But I also really do understand. I’ve gotten loads of that since.
0 tolerance policies in general don’t work. But 0 tolerance for mental illness is pretty dumb. What if you have a mentally ill child that tears up the house? Are you going to throw them in the dumpster like dad? Or your favorite songwriter? Coworkers?
Your life is your life, I just don’t see how anyone can be happy with those kinds of policies. But you be you. And I mean it.
Just so we’re clear, we’re mutual. (maybe for the same reason)
I do not want you to change your heart and try to contact me again. I don’t know how to process going years without seeing you and being hurt. Now folks might be under the impression I am taking visits from people who ghosted me. In case that’s the case, please don’t.
I have a recovery environment going strong here. You’d ruin that.
Sorry it had to be this way. But I’m down to just trying to live at the moment. That would be more difficult should you return. I hope none of us want that.
Some wishes.
Just because I don’t want to see you, doesn’t mean I wish bad things to happen. I wish amazing things. World record things. I hope your life rocks. But I’m still bruised from the curb I landed on when you booted me from your lives. I don’t need that again.
I wish more than anything you weren’t so manipulated by folks who hate me. But whatever’s clever. Shit happens. I get that too.
For future reference.
Ghosts are funny. Many of them brag about how independent-minded they are in their decisions. Their decision is often mental-health bias in action. Check psych wards if you think I’m lying. Wall to wall ghosted. Vanishing on a sick person is not a very independent way of doing things. I hope you’re more prepared for the next one you run across.
I’ve listened to ghosts talk about their experiences before. Abuse I get. But most of them were never in danger. They were embarrassed to be related to a mental health patient. All they had to do was take them to the doctor. Guess that would have been too much to ask from a father, husband, or friend.
Return to home.
